September 23, 2005

I'm praying for you guys in Nac.. You're going to get some serious storms. Give us a call occasionally to let us know you're all alright.

September 21, 2005

Okay, I've actually been watching the news this time around. Looks like Houston is in for a doosey!

Be praying for everyone there, as well as New Orleans. They'll more than likely be flooded again.

Oh, and if you aren't already keeping people from houston this weekend, let us know, we've had some phone calls of people in need of a place to go.

September 15, 2005

We had a great birthday.

We had pizza, and cake and coke! And got to get messy and stay up late and play with new toys and everything!

He saw everything he had done, and it was good!

September 14, 2005

A letter to my son:

A year ago today, my dream was finally coming true. A year ago today I had not yet met you, touched you, seen you or heard your voice, but I knew you. I had felt you, dreamed about you and fallen in love with you long before that day. But still, I had no idea what to expect from you. I had no idea that you would bring so much love, joy, pain and fear. I had no idea you'd be such a difficult eater, or that you would be jaundiced. I didn't even really know what that meant for you. I had no idea that this day would bring three days of seperation before I could bring you home and keep you. I had no idea if I'd ever stop crying every time I looked at you. And I never dreamed you'd be so tiny! I knew you'd be precious and that I'd love you from the start, but I didn't know you'd sleep for at least six weeks and that I would beam with such pride every time I saw those precious eyes opened.

A year ago today, I knew you'd be fun, but I didn't know you'd be a fun baby, or that entertaining you would be so easy! All we'd have to do was sing or smile or make a silly face. I never realized what wanders a mirror could be to a baby until I met you. I had no idea how I'd actually look forward to changing your diaper because the attention would make you so happy. I never knew you could have both your daddy's lips and my smile at the same time. I just knew at the time that you'd be beautiful and you'd be mine.

A year ago today, I lived only on a prayer that you'd be everything we hoped. But you've already given us a thousand times more than we could have dreamed.

A year ago, I knew it would be difficult to get out of bed to take care of you in the night, but I had no idea how much harder it would be to stay there and worry or to let you cry. I never would have guessed how much pain it would bring me to let you out of my arms or my sight, even though I know your okay. I never would have guessed how much a part of me you had actually become.

A year ago today, I knew you'd be beautiful, but I had no idea how beautiful. I didn't know I would look directly into my own eyes when I looked into yours, or that I would touch your daddy's brown skin, or that you'd have that wild strawberry blondish brownish hair. I never would have guessed that we'd share the same dimples or feet. And I never would have known you'd have such a long body all the while sharing the same structure with your father. And I really couldn't have guessed that all these features could be put together so beautifully. God was really amazing when he created you!

A year ago, I knew you'd be fun, but I had no idea you'd be so funny! When you make your funny face just because you know it makes us laugh, or when you learned to snort like a piggy in church. You really are a funny guy! I never would have expected you to crawl in such a funny sort of way with your tail bone wagging like a puppy, or to have such wild Christopher Walkin hair that we don't even want to train it! I had no idea you'd do all the funny things you'd do. I'm so glad God gave you a sense of humor!

A year ago, I could have told anyone you'd be smart, but I didn't realize what it would do to me when you said mama for the first time. I knew you'd be affectionate at first, but I never realized how I could melt when you offered a kiss to me for the first time.

A year ago today, I knew I'd be proud of you, but I never expected to be so biased. I knew I'd love you, but I never expected to fall head over heals. I knew I'd change, but I never could have guessed how God would change me through you. You've made me softer, gentler, and maybe even a little kinder just by existing. It's amazing to see through you, how much God really has his fingerprints all over all of us.

A year ago today, I knew you'd be my baby, but I had no idea what that really meant.

Happy birthday little boy! You'll always be my baby.